Hey there! How are you guys doing? Thought it was a good time for a little update.

Have been pretty busy with work these last few months. It's not that I'm drowning in it, but it could be nice to spend some more time on other stuff. I don't have any rights to complain. Been self employed for about 1.5 years now and loving it. Sure you have a lot more responsibilities. But on the other side you get a lot of freedom as well.

But still, I've been a guy who lives by the day. And I've done just that for many years now. It's not that I'm lazy, but I've never had any big goals or a direction in life. I'd usually go do stuff other people ask of me, or do things that I come across. Although I'm not extremely determined, I always give it my best. Oddly enough it brought me a long way. But it will only go that far. And a few months ago I realized that I won't get anywhere continuing this mildly satisfying cycle of daily activities. But finding the drive to crack the cycle wasn't something I could do on a free afternoon.

Until a few days ago, I sat down with my roomies discussing this issue I was having. And after a pretty long conversation I realized I never really asked myself what I wanted out of life. I just grabbed what came on my path. And searched for something to liked within it. I didn't know what made my inner clock tick. I never really gave myself the opportunity to speak up en tell myself all the things I always wanted to do.

These few days I've been thinking about it nonstop. So much even, that I'm having conversations with myself in my own head. It's pretty weird. From never having any inner dialog, to scolding yourself about the most useless stuff. Oddly enough I really like it. Makes me feel alive. Looking at things with a completely different angle.

And it all is much more clear to me now. I've found passion. I've found drive. I've found things to love. Goals to reach. Things I want in life.

I'm really pumped. So much stuff to do and enjoy. I'll be done with the work in a week or 2. After that I'll take a few days to relax and take some time to think. Then it's off to do great things. Gonna go all out!

And to celebrate it all, I bought myself a brand new laptop. A Sony VAIO Z series. [link]
To work on it is sheer bliss. There are so many things about it I love. I would even give up women for it... then again... I really like women. Like really REALLY like them. I think it's the keyboard caressing my fingers while I'm typing this. It's seducing me... Better get a hold of myself before I do stuff to it, that the standard warrantee won't be able to cover ~~~